
That’s how a woman I know began a recent post. It was quite a hook, and I read on. She continued by telling in detail how her marriage had been failing, how she’d spent hours on her face in her prayer closet, much like Elizabeth Jordan in the Kendrick Brothers’ movie War Room (Fireproof and Facing the Giants), staring Priscilla Shirer and Beth Moore.She confessed that, while she was far from perfect, she earnestly desired to save her marriage, and so she sought Papa in prayer–begging Him to heal and restore her relationship with her husband.And still, their marriage ended.
Many of us are asking this, for a variety of reasons.
Does it matter that we go in to our prayer closets, those War Rooms where we close the world away to be one-on-one with our Papa, seeking Him with earnest, gut-wrenching, heart-pressing prayers?Perhaps our question is more. Maybe it’s also–
But we’re promised in scripture–
Or maybe our question isn’t whether or not God hears but something else–something which, depending on the answer, holds power to rock our faith. Maybe even crumble it.
And that’s where I for one get stumped–so much so that sometimes I fail to pray at all, afraid that, having poured out my heart to God, He won’t answer, and my faith will, in turn, falter.Sadly, I’m Queen of Justification, excusing my lack of faith.
Perhaps it’s better not to pray about this. Rather, I’ll leave this particular request to those who are more courageous. After all, it must certainly be better to remain prayer-less before You in this matter, Papa. Otherwise I’m at risk of being drained of what little faith I do have. Surely that’s worse than my cowardice now.
Am I the only one who’s said this, which, ironically, is in and of itself a sort of prayer–one God can certainly handle? But the scriptures speak to this too, one passage reminding us specifically why it is that we struggle.
It’s not so much our fear of suffering a faith shortage that renders us prayer-less, paralyzing us and keeping us from our prayer closets. It’s the fact that we struggle to have bold faith at all, not fully trusting Papa with the outcome.Seems we need to take what smidgen of faith we do have and snuggle up to our Savior. He’s the One who can do much with little, and by simply drawing near to Him our faith increases exponentially–much like fish and loaves. The reward for this time spent in Papa’s presence is undoubtedly a more faith-filled, courageous prayer life–no longer dependent on the answer one thinks best but trusting Him for the outcome, no matter what.And one more nugget of truth to help us in our pray-with-faith dilemma is discovered several chapters earlier in Hebrews.
Again, it’s in the drawing near to Papa with confidence; that is, boldly, with whatever measure of faith one has, that she finds mercy and grace to help–
Because, truth is, we live in a world filled with imperfections. Our prayers will not always be answered the way we believe best, even when God’s heart, too, is breaking. Sin has separated and led to all sorts of destruction–
Or is it that the world isn’t as it should be, not as it will be one day? Though our faith may feel frail, we’re to continue to go in and do battle with the enemy–the Sword of God’s Word clutched in our hands if not hidden in our hearts. Do it until our knees hurt, our eyes are puffy, our stomachs feel empty, and our hearts are poured out before Papa.Because He hears. He knows. He’ll answer, even if the answer’s not what we’d hoped it would be, and He’ll likely call us to be His hands and feet to offer help which brings about the miracle.And one day–one day!–He’ll make all things right, including our full transformation into His perfect likeness.The woman I mentioned began by asking–What happens when the War Room doesn’t work? But she ended her post with a bold proclamation–
Indeed. Go in–even when your faith feels small, ready to be changed.Come out equipped to help change this broken world.
Dear Papa, please increase my faith as I press in to You. May my War Room always bring transformation–first my own, then, as Your vessel, through the work You’ll call me to do in the lives of others. In Your Son’s powerful name–Amen.
The Conversation
Thank you for these powerful words, Maureen. Papa met us in our War Room and answered our prayers this past week, though in a way that also has left me fearful for my loved one’s future. But he knows best and his plans for her future are greater than my fear. We are in New England for some weeks to come – so sad to hear about the flooding in Haywood and Buncombe Counties.
Will continue to pray for you and your situation in my War Room, too, dear friend. Love you.